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  “Foreman said we can work inside on the trawler if we want, or we can go back to the paint crew in the tanker. It’s our pick,” Keith said. There were only two vessels in the yard, nothing else waiting or even scheduled to come in, and most of the short-timers had already been put on layoff for the rest of the winter. Keith had been complaining for a week about the two ships, wishing the yard was empty and that the whole crew could be on layoff for a little while. “Hate winter,” he’d mutter.

  “We can be freezing cold outside, or inside in the warm and the whole day stinkin’ of paint. That’s pretty slim pickings,” Glenn said.

  Vincent thought that the pair of words sounded just the way Glenn always talked—“slim pickings”—just a couple of sudden words that didn’t seem to mean anything at all on their own but that fit him perfectly. “Slim pickings”—“Fat chance”—“No way.” Not “No damn way” or “No fucking way” either—and Vincent had heard both of those before, from his father and from other men at the yard—but just “No way,” and the way Mr. Coughlin said it, it sounded far more serious than anyone else could make it sound.

  Glenn stopped the truck at the four-way stop and then turned onto Bond Street, passing the house he never seemed to be in, a narrow trench dug through the snow towards the front door like he felt the digging was hardly worth the effort. The back wheels of the truck slipped because the snow had melted and then frozen again overnight where it had run out in a long tongue just past the crosswalk.

  The sky was flat white and still, all the blue bled out of it by winter and the latitude, the sunlight thin and distant and struggling to throw down any heat at all.

  Vincent looked up at his father out of the corner of his eye. It looked like his father was going to say something else, but then it was like Glenn could read his mind. He gave a small shake of his head, raising both his eyebrows at once.

  Glenn Coughlin, Vincent decided, had eyebrows that were far more bushy than any he had ever seen.

  They drove in silence for a few more minutes, the streets still relatively empty, Coughlin taking the corners wide and fast, his side of the truck often in the other lane. When they met another vehicle, it was the other car or truck that acquiesced and coughed up the right-of-way. Glenn had no compunctions about sitting in the street, nose to nose with someone else and at a dead stop, until the other driver changed his mind and let Glenn go on.

  Then the pickup was in front of the school. It was an old school, a big, two-storey brick building with too-large windows, and there were scores of other children spinning up the sidewalk towards the front door like busy ants. Down among narrow streets of row houses, each house seemed to be disgorging more kids onto the streets every moment, the narrow sidewalks blocked with snow, and every child was producing his or her own tiny engine-like plume of steam as they moved in masses along the curb.

  Vincent opened the truck’s door, and as he did, Coughlin reached across in front of Keith and ruffled Vincent’s hair. “Work hard,” he said. “Do your best. Get good grades. You’ll probably end up down on the dock with us anyway, though.”

  And no, I won’t, Vincent thought even then. Vincent liked geography best of all, because it was the study of everywhere else. A study that made McKay Street, and even St. John’s, the smallest possible speck.

  Glenn took his hand away by giving the boy’s head a sudden little shove and then a sharp, harsh knock with two of his knuckles, as if suggesting any sort of kindness was a passing thing.

  “See ya, Vincent,” his father said quietly.

  “See ya, Dad.”

  Coughlin put the truck back into gear and was pulling away from the curb before the door was fully closed. Halfway down the block, the truck’s horn gave a forlorn little toot, as if remembering something it had forgotten, but Vincent’s hand was already on the big brass door handle to the school, and he barely bothered to look at the truck as it vanished downhill towards the harbour.

  The tide of children surged and pushed their way in through the heavy door to the school, jostling all around him and carrying him in through the door like he was a chip of wood suspended in a current, the direction he was going to travel already decided upon by everyone else.

  188A

  McKay Street

  RON COLLINS

  FEBRUARY 18, 2006

  LIZ TOLD RON she was leaving their apartment the first time he managed to reach her on the prison pay phone. It was only a week after he’d been arrested, and it was as though every single thing about her had changed.

  “I’m not really supposed to even talk to you, right?” she said, her voice tinny and distant through the earpiece of the phone, and he could imagine she was winding her right index finger in her hair while she said it. “I’m a witness.”

  She said it like it was an important job she’d been individually selected to do, as if the term had a special and particular weight, like it was “I’m a doctor” or “I’m an engineer.” He remembered the way her voice sounded as she said it, remembered that tone and pitch for days.

  The phone was pressed against his ear and he could feel the hard plastic circle of it against his skin, even though everything else around him had reduced in the same instant to a circle of grey, sparkling fog. Behind him, the voices of the other inmates were bouncing off the blue-painted walls in the long hallway, high and harsh, sharp and metallic and constantly in motion, but to Ronnie it seemed as if they were simply fading out of earshot with the impact of what she was saying.

  “If I see you or talk to you or anything, you can be charged again. So it’s for your own good, really, you not calling here anymore. Your mom’s coming to get your stuff and she’ll put it in the basement. And I had to sell the car, but I sent your parents half.”

  Liz kept talking, but suddenly he wasn’t listening, and instead was hopelessly picturing her naked in front of the refrigerator in their apartment, drinking orange juice straight out of the carton so fast that he could hear the sound of her swallowing, the liquid rushing down her throat urgently, like it was needed in some kind of immediate and elemental way.

  And then he remembered the way she would close the fridge door and turn towards him, legs apart, one hand on her hip, not the least bit shy, wiping her lips with her other forearm. He wondered if that whole memory was at risk, if he was now the only one who remembered it, and, if something happened to him, whether all of that reality would simply be gone.

  When he hung up the phone, he figured that, out of the two of them, he was the only one close to crying.

  The guards were slamming the doors back on the range, getting everybody out of their cells at once, forcing them out to exercise for an hour in the prison yard, where the only thing you could see up over the walls was the plastic shopping bags caught in the razor wire and the top of a building that had once been a nurses’ residence. Sometimes the guards took that opportunity to turn a few of the cells upside down, searching for contraband or homemade weapons, so that prisoners would come back and find the only place they had that was even close to home turned over like soil in the rows of a field of harvested potatoes.

  The guards had a small house just outside the walls where they would throw parties on the weekends. Everyone inside thought that the guards went out of their way to be as loud as they could, just so the inmates could hear them having a good time, the guards rubbing in that they could do exactly what they wanted and the people on the inside of the walls couldn’t.

  Other than the searches and the noise, the penitentiary, an ancient grey stone complex squatting at Forest Road, wasn’t at all like Ron had thought it would be: it wasn’t like television, he hadn’t been beaten up or threatened. There weren’t gangs or much in the way of hard drugs, beyond abused prescriptions. Nor were there assaults by burly men in the showers or hissed warnings from guys thick with inky, smudged prison tattoos. Most of the time, Ron was just bored silly, spending every single day in his cell, waiting to hear from anyone, the days ticking by metered only by
the small bit of sky outside the reinforced-glass window of his cell and the endless routine of every day.

  The jail was regularly overcrowded, but all that meant at first was that he sometimes shared his cell with an overweight convicted drunk driver serving his conditional sentence on weekends. “New guys with serious charges, we like to inch them into the regular population,” one guard told him, a rumpled old guy who walked down the range as if every shift was his last before retirement. Most of the guards didn’t speak to Ron unless they were telling him where to go or what to do, short, sharp sentences that involved the guards either pointing or flexing the muscles in their arms.

  Ron wondered what the drunk driver had done to earn a spot in a cell with a murderer. It must have been something good, he thought. Maybe the guy was mouthy on the first day in: whatever else the guards were, they certainly didn’t have short memories. You piss them off, Ron thought, and every other prisoner in for a weekend sentence would sign the book and be let out because the prison was full—and you’d find yourself at the end of a hall next to someone high on smuggled meds who spent the whole night bouncing off the inside of his cell like he was a rubber ball or something.

  Ron found it funny that the pudgy little drunk driver wouldn’t look at him, even when Ron tried to force him to talk. The guy just made himself as small and nondescript as he could on his bunk for almost every moment he spent in the cell.

  Too many nights watching The Sopranos or The Godfather, Ron thought. Too many movies.

  Sometimes he’d hear the drunk driver crying at night, and he couldn’t imagine how the guy could spend so much time feeling sorry for himself. One night the guy said something like, “Someone like me’s not supposed to be in here,” and Ron found the whole idea so funny that he almost laughed out loud. He’d already learned that, if you listen to them talk, everyone in jail is innocent.

  “You and me both, buddy,” Ron had said, but his cellmate only looked carefully at the wall and pretended not to hear. Ron understood looking at the walls: they were heavily coated in thick blue paint, but get close enough and you could find spots where earlier prisoners had scratched messages right into the cinder block, carefully etched reminders scribed with unbent paper clips. Fight Back, a message near Ron’s head said, but the leg on the a was thin and filled with paint, so Ron read it as Fight Bock and spent the nights imagining Bock and getting ready to fight him.

  A couple of days after he talked to her on the phone, at a bail hearing that his lawyer told him was just a formality—“No way they’re letting you out,” the lawyer had said, and closed his briefcase like a door slamming—Ron had seen Liz leaving the courtroom with one of the cops, a lanky fellow named Ballard who’d been one of the guys in the room when they had first questioned him. Ballard had thick dark hair and a bushy moustache and, when he occasionally used it, a deep, flat voice where the lack of inflection made it sound like the police officer didn’t believe anything, not even his own words. His questions didn’t sound like they had question marks.

  Ron wasn’t sure if Ballard was an investigating officer or just a supervisor. He seemed to be there whenever they brought Ron into the interview room, a coil notebook open in front of him on the table in the back of the small room. Ballard only took a few notes, and Ron couldn’t remember seeing the officer blink or look away. He had a big square head that was almost set right into his shoulders, his neck practically invisible. Sometimes he’d step into a gap in the questioning and throw out one flat, expressionless sentence, and Ron was never sure whether he was supposed to answer it or just accept it. Other times Ballard would get up for no apparent reason and leave the interview room. And every time, a few minutes after he did, the interview would end, the other two police officers would turn off the video camera on its tripod, and it would be back down to the police cells to wait for the prison van to make its trundling tour around the city, picking prisoners up from the police station, the lock-up and the courts.

  At Ron’s bail hearing, Ballard sat in the back of the court, not saying a word, his eyes flat and gathering. Ballard and Liz weren’t even sitting together—that didn’t mean anything, Ron thought—and Ballard’s face hadn’t changed when Liz said her piece from the witness box.

  And, Ron thought, what a piece that had been.

  Liz had somehow made herself look even smaller up there on the stand, made her voice tremble like she was afraid, stopping and looking down a lot. At first it was short answers, only a few words at a time, the Crown chiding her along like he was trying to pull the story out of her piece by piece. For Ron, it was like watching an accomplished actor on stage. He almost believed he was listening to a completely different person than the Liz he knew.

  Once, she even built a shuddering, almost full-stop sigh right into the middle of a sentence, and Ron knew every single man in the room—even the judge—was somehow leaning towards her, ready to protect her if something suddenly happened. Like they could rip their shirts right open and the big Superman S would be there on their chests, Ron thought. Every one of them like John Wayne in an old movie, waiting to say, “Need a hand, little lady?” while knocking him down and putting a few boots in for good measure.

  He wanted to jump up then, jump up and shout that Liz wasn’t really like that at all, that she was just saying whatever they wanted her to say, but his lawyer seemed to realize what was about to happen and looked across at him, shaking his head, the motion keeping Ron in his chair. It was good advice. Whenever Ron moved the least little bit in the prisoner’s box, it was like the air in the courtroom changed, the sheriff ’s officers leaning in slightly towards him. They looked almost as if they were swelling up inside their white shirts, getting ready for trouble, and everyone in the room, from the lawyers to the clerks, seemed to react to their cue.

  It was like magic, he thought: every single thing Liz said was true, yet when you took it all together, none of it was. It was like things had all been taken out of order and then rearranged to reach a different and specific conclusion, and when Liz was finished talking, Ron sat in the prisoner’s box for a moment, stunned, not completely sure whether or not he was supposed to applaud.

  Then, when it was Ron’s turn on the stand, briefly, his words turned to ashes before he could get them out properly. The judge was looking down at the desk in front of him. He didn’t seem to notice Ron was speaking, and immediately refused bail, banging his gavel once before standing up in a swirl of black robe and red sash. He left the court without speaking another word.

  It was when he was getting his handcuffs put back on that Ron was suddenly completely certain that Liz was involved with Ballard, that at least one other person in the courtroom probably now knew all about orange juice and faked shyness and sharp, savage teeth.

  Ron knew Liz. He just knew.

  He knew the truth from the way she kept cutting in close next to Ballard, knew at once that she was keeping an orbit too small and proscribed to be anything but deliberately gravitational. Her hands didn’t actually touch the police officer, but at the same time she came carefully close, close enough that, watching, Ron could remember the delicate thrill of those hands, a feeling on his skin that involved both warmth and something like a gentle, constant vibration.

  The door closed behind them while the sheriff ’s officers were pulling him down out of the prisoner’s box.

  He could imagine the sound of her panting in Ballard’s arms, and tried hard to shake the sound from his head while the sheriff ’s officers pulled him back to the holding cells and the other inmates waiting for the van to haul them back to the prison. He cut up his knuckles by pounding his cuffed hands slowly and repeatedly against the cinder-block walls, blood appearing in stripes on the paint until the other inmates started yelling, afraid of what might happen if he hurt himself seriously. Then the sheriff ’s officers came in and knocked him down, cuffing his hands behind his back instead. They left him lying face down on the floor of the big cell, unable to stand or sit until court e
nded for the day and the van finally came. The other men in the holding cell stepped around him and over him, staying away from his head as if he were a big sleeping dog that might wake up and all of a sudden decide to swing its head around and bite whatever it could reach.

  Back in the prison, days later, when Ron finally had a visitor, when he was called up to the small room and sat down at the empty table and was told “No contact, hands or feet,” it turned out to be someone from a different range in the prison, someone from general population.

  His father.

  “Called in a couple of favours,” Tony said, shrugging. He was sitting across from Ron, the room so narrow his knees were almost touching Ron’s legs despite the rules. The guard against the wall, watching. “Lots of people get their start working with the city—firefighters, guards, cops, everyone.”

  And then Tony sat silently across from him in the blue-painted room as Ron tried—and failed—to find the right words.

  “It wasn’t . . . I didn’t mean to . . . It was like it was all out of my hands the whole time,” he said. “I was there, and I was doing it, and it was like there was no deciding at all. Like there was nothing I could do to stop it, even if I’d wanted to.”

  Then Ron stared hard across at his father, a challenging expression on his face, daring his father to say anything. Instead, he was startled to see Tony looking straight back into his eyes, with something close to a half smile that seemed to be sad, resigned and understanding all at the same time, as if nothing he had said had been news to Tony at all.